Who say what, huh?

So starting a new lifestyle is super intimidating...let me tell you that. haha. It has to kind of evolve in steps. SO before now this is what would happen....
Step 1: Identify your weaknesses
Step 2: avoid said weakness like the plague
Step 3: Stare at a can of cookies and want to cry
Step 4: One cookie won't hurt..(the little voice in my head doing that dramatic NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO thing)
Rinse and repeat Its like a really bad tv show that just keeps repeating and repeating but for some reason you always watch..ALWAYS.

This time around I am trying the whole moderation thing. Eat small meals throughout the day...of course lunch is a little bigger, because lets get real by noon I want to eat a house! I am not sure of the schematics of what this dramatic life change is, but one thing is for sure. I am going to try to focus on loving me for me everyday. Because really I am my worst enemy when it comes to eating out of boredom and eating my emotions, whatever they be that day.

Well that is my rant for the day. I am trying to infuse my dry humor into this blog because I need to laugh at myself and just have a good time with this journey.

Lots of Love! :) --KB

First Day of Many

I don't know what to say to start this thing off so here goes nothing. For the past 13 years of my life I have struggled with my weight, to the point of emotional breakdowns because I don't know what I am doing wrong. On top of that I am addicted to sugar. Some people laugh when I tell them that, but it is honestly a thing and I am sure I am not the only person out there that can admit to it. As a very science-y person, trust me it is real. It is a life long struggle to keep the scale from teetering too much, if not for my own health then for my own mental state. I am here today to state that I have gone 2 days without emotionally binging. For me that is a feat. My body has adapted to eat out of boredom, stress, and basically any emotion...you name it...I will eat because of it. Don't get me wrong I have remorse after it, and I know how bad it is for my body..but it still happens. I making a solemn vow here on the interwebs that I am making my final and permanent change, this one will stick and I plan to document it on this beautiful blog provided to my by Google. I don't know how this will go over and I am trying to practice my self control by actually keeping up with it. I know people I know will read this and I know this is no longer anonymous since my face is kinda there and facebook will see it (so lets get real the whole world will see it then) but this is going to be personal, raw, and gritty. I don't plan to hold details back and I will post my weight and maybe some pictures of my progress when I feel I need to, but each day is my new salvation. Each day I wake up a little healthier and a little more me. Thanks for your love and support <3 --KB